Depression after abortion?

I am feeling really down… I had an abortion about a week ago and I just now stopped bleeding. I went for my follow up yesterday and I really was hoping deep down that the pregnancy test would still say positive. I would give anything and everything in my life to go back to five minutes before and say no. I was carrying twins which makes it harder. I am 20 years old and still in school studying to be an elementary teacher. The thing is I still rely on my parents for everything. I feel horrible when I go out and have to turn my face when I see any baby or anything related to a baby. I spent the whole morning crying and I am still crying. I feel so bad…. I want my babies back! please if you are anti abortion do not write anything I do not need to feel guiltier than I already do.

http://www.4exhale.org

http://www.afterabortion.com/

http://www.ImNotSorry.net

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mizuko_kuy%C5%8D

This helped a friend of mine when she was mourning her abortion.

I had a friend who went through the same thing. Terrible guilt after her abortion, she couldn’t stand to be around me afterwards because I was pregnant and then after my baby was born she kinda avoided me because she couldn’t stand to be around my baby. I totally understood her point of view and didn’t/couldn’t take offense. She needed time to heal without the wound her abortion caused being irritated by my pregnancy/baby.
Mourn and grieve if you need to and it sounds like you need to.
Please seek out help so this does not traumatize you further. You sound like you need help coping with your decision.

I sincerely hope you heal well.

~Pro-Choice Momma; Have had an abortion and I have a 8 month old daughter . I believe in protecting my daughter’s choice.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hsSQiazUvgo